survey

I was tasked to do this. Some of the phrasings in the questions are weird though (I typed the questions word for word).


single, taken or crushing?

what the hell is crushing? i'm taken ^^

are you happy with your life now?

not really.

when you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him/her fast?

no.

have you ever had your heart broken?

yes.

do you believe that there are some circumstances where cheating love acceptable?

u mean cheating on my gf? not acceptable, period.

would you take someone back if he cheats on you?

depends. if i really love her, i'll forgive her.

have you ever talked about marriage with another before?

yes.

do you want children?

yes.

how many?

hmm 2 (a boy, a girl)? must discuss with my other half 1st, lol.

would you ever consider adoption?

NEVER! why should i when i've the ability to procreate? lol.

if someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his/her feelings?

sing a jay song. my fave song by jay is 简单爱 btw =)

do you enjoy getting into relationship?

yes and no.

be honest, what is the furtherest thing you and your ex did?

i kissed her on the cheek.

do you believe in love at first sight?

no.

are you romantic?

i don't think so.

do you believe you can change someone?

hmm interesting qns. i dunno, lol.

if you could get married somewhere, where would it be?

i'll go wherever she wants to go =)

do you give in easily when you are fighting?

yes.

do you have feelings for someone right now?

duh =)

do you ever wish that you could have someone but you messed it up?

sort of.

have you ever broken a heart?

yes. so sorry to her.

if one day your best friend falls in love with the person you are deeply in love with, what'll you do?

this will never happen, so dun worry.

are you missing someone now?

another duh qns. of course la =)

Now, you have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survey in their blogs. Write down their names in the list below. Tag them in their blogs to let them know.

1. Ernest
2. Daryl
3. Matthew
4. Jonathan
5. Melissa

That's all for today. Ciao ~_~

Live together, die alone together?

Sorry baby-chan. I said i'll blog at least once every 2 days, but i broke my promise ytd. Got lots of things to do ytd, den returned home quite late too. You must be thinking why the interesting title? Well, it's adapted from the season finale of lost 2, when the title of the last 2 episodes were "live together, die alone."

Weekends were spent clearing up the mess in my room. Had to do it, if not i won't have space to put my stuff for the new sem. Speaking of which, i'm looking forward to cuz we r finally getting down to the interesting modules, at least to me. It's what dmc is about, and i cnt wait for sch to start, though i feel like we didn't have much time for each other, with u going for ur japan trip n i being busy with choir.

Choir ytd was ... horrible. I don't understand why there are so many problems in this organisation now. Maybe because this choir is in a state of transition. Everything just seems continuous to me. Let's see? First was the problem with the previous conductor. Then was the issue of settling the camp funds and re-establishing the choir funds. Disunity between the exco didn't help matters, and now the new conductor cnt come in to teach until at least 15 oct, according to saa. I'm getting increasingly frustrated by the lack of commitment shown in most of the members too, with them not coming down for practices. I don't blame them, given the state of the choir and it's the sem break now. People look at the exco for direction on what to do next, but frankly sometimes i'm clueless too. I really need your guidance, dear. I don't know what my motivation is for continuing to work hard for choir. Maybe just to let time pass without you being physically here? Whatever it is, i just hope it can last till next year, when we step down. Looks like john's advice to jack in the 2nd episode of lost 2, when jack didn't want to push the button in the hatch, was, and still is, right - just take a leap of faith and believe.

Till then, only 3 more days to your return!

I love u =)

hardcore choir

Ytd was one hardcore day of choir, oishi-san. Just as well in ur email u said u wont be online last night, cuz i'll be offline too, lol. Nvm, let me update u abt ytd.

Went to school at 12+ in pouring conditions. The rain was relentless n i was late in meeting matt n kenneth in the choir rm, only reached there around 1.30. We had to see vicky at 3 regarding goh's contract, so in the meantime, we dug up all the old scores n sorted them out according to genres of music, creating a master library of scores. It was a tedious process which took us almost one night to finish doing it, but we did it after having badminton downstairs in the courts.

The yr 1s slowly filed in n the 3 of us left mark in charge as we had to see vicky. Damn saa made us wait so long for vicky n go in circles searching for the relevant ppl who could solve our problem. There was this funny guy serving us at the saa counter: we asked him to help us find his colleague - someone called joanne - u guess wat he said? "Who's joanne?" Like wtf la. Your own colleague u dunno u expect us to know meh? Spent abt 45 mins there just to rush them. Sigh, how efficient saa is. The tentative date, saa claimed, is that goh can come in starting from 15 oct. Man, they better keep their word on that.

We oso organised a badminton day for the members ytd, though there were no cca points up for grabs. The few who came had a good time, judging from their sweat n interaction with everyone present. Good workout with badminton n tai dee peeps, haha. Damn i've to exercise more. Was panting after only abt 20 mins of playing badminton with ernest. Lousy piece of shit. Later on we played doubles with matt n victor, n were understandably thrashed. Haiz. Better start training up b4 yr 3 napfa test, if not i'm going to embarrass myself then.

Badminton was till 7, n most of the members went home. The rest of us decided to continue with the compiling of the master library n it took us till abt 9 b4 we finished it. Went home after that. Too tired to come online, decided to take a bath, eat dinner n stone in bed, thinking abt certain random stuff tat came to my mind - problems in choir comm, choir accounts, sch life in the new term etc. But i oso tot of u dear. Wondering if this separation did us any good. It sure did for me - it made me realise i was too dependent on us b4 u left n i was one-dimensional n anti-social. Ur departure has let me realise that time n again i 've taken u for granted n im sorry for that. This time without u has strengthened me spiritually a lot n im glad that i realised all this faults in me, which will never be learnt to be accepted if not for ur overseas trip. Hopefully, u feel the same way too.

Oishi-san, only 6 more days separating us from each other. Stay strong ok? I've got some stuff to tell u regarding our timetable too. Look for me online tonight if possible ok?

I love u =)

-PS- Oh yes, devon wants me to help pass her a message, saying that she's looking for u. Can u pls look for her online soon? Thanks.

no-lifer type of life i've...

Boring shit. Boring day. Boring life. In short, i'm a BORING person to be with.

Did absolutely nothing today other sleeping my ass away for the day. Sounds productive eh?

At least i won't be sleeping 2nite cuz of idol n lost 2. Who's going to the final 2 showdown at the indoor stadium on the 24th sep? Who's exiting the competition later? Pls let it not be jasmine. Hate to see her go, but last night she was the weak link n hey, at least she knows she's the most improved idol finalist of this season from ken's comments. Yup we'll see abt tat later.

As for lost 2, the plot thickens. The hatch implodes, with locke, ekko n desmond fighting over a damn "button", michael's betrayal causes serious consequences to the group travelling to find the "Others", n a twist is revealed at the end. Omg, i cnt wait to see lost 3 to find out the conclusions of lost 2! Too bad the season premiere of lost 3 in the us is oct 4, meaning it'll take ages to be shown in spore. Damn.

Off to tv for now, lalalala. Will blog more abt choir tmr, when we'll be having some games thingy organised by kenneth.

Till then, 8 days to our reunion oishi-san =)

never talk cock with a st patrick's graduate if ur allergic to jokes n laughter

oishi-san must be wondering why the interesting title? haha today turned out to be a ultra hilarious day...

the choir attendance was pathetic today. only the ppl involved in the cca drive thingy (which is like 5 ppl only?), edwin n melissa , jonathan n edgar came down for practices. exco even worse. only mark n i came down today. the rest had their reasons for not coming (i like to believe that is so for everyone, lol). that makes it a grand total of ... 11 ppl. how impressive. after waiting till around 12.30, i had no choice but to break everyone into gender (dun even talk abt sections la!) - gals stay in the dance studio while guys up to the choir rm for sectionals. since there was nobody frm tenors who could read notes well, i sent jon to teach them while mark n i slowly played our way thru, with our lousy note-reading skills, that stupid song we learnt last fri - what fucked-up sweeter music - for us n edwin to revise. we managed it quite well, the 3 of us. im v proud of our bass section man, even though it was only a 3-man show, not including jon. we've really come a long way from shizhen's time last year when we 1st joined. haha we've probably most definitely outshined them! lol. ok im getting carried away here. =)

anyway, it was soon 2 o'clock, which was the time i specified in the dance studio to end sectionals earlier, n the gals came up. i allowed them to discuss whatever they needed to do for the cca drive in the room while those not involved were just chilling n checking out jon's laptop, which happened to be the exact same model as bugger's, lol. simultaneously, one could feel the room lingering with anxiety, as jon had earlier promised to lend us his laptop to let us check our results. one by one, as everyone's d-day scheduled results release time approached, the anxiety increased exponentially as time past.

finally, 2.30pm struck. the magic time came for me to check my results, but being the idiot nice gentleman im, i allowed nicole to go 1st. she n yingzheng din disappoint, scoring a gpa of 3.5+ each. then came my turn. i was practically shaking as i took my seat in front of the laptop, though everyone was too busy discussing abt cca drive/playing the keyboard/talking crap/stoning to see me shake like Shakira. the moment of truth appeared in front of me soon after n i din dare to see it. i slowly opened my eyes n there it was. these r my grades for acad yr 2006/07 sem 1 (those in brackets represent my targeted grades):

• IHRP - Distinction (Distinction)
• OM - B (A)
• LSC - B (B)
• FW - B (B)
• MMR - B (B+)
• CONB - B+ (Distinction)
• DMA - B+ (B+)
• sem gpa > 3.25
• cumulative gpa > 3.28

it's ok, but not satisfactory for me. i expected more As, damn it.

anyway, soon after, everyone went down for lunch n some of the choir peeps left 1st. those that din were treated to a once-in-a-lifetime spectacle by uncle mark. hehe =)

the final 6 survivors peeps that stayed behind after lunch were yours truly, uncle mark, edwin, melissa, nicole n yingzheng. we talked lots of crap over lunch n all the guys except yingzheng were at 1 table n the rest, another table. the topics at the gals table, from what i heard from the only guy there, had victoria's secrets n lace n what-nots, lol. but our topics would win hands down if it were rated for sheer entertainment value. u should see uncle mark when he cracks jokes. hilarious shit man. edwin n i were laughing like mad, even the other table turned around n looked at us as if we r aliens sia (i mean the 3 ppl sitting at the table, not the table itself, lol). uncle mark was poking fun at the teachers of his former sec sch, st patrick's sec. the english HOD-mr ong-prelims scenario was the funniest. the various HODs racing from the HOD room to the school carpark to see who'll reach 1st also damn lame. haiz how come montfort so sianz? only got one mr blackie n mr wu-liao to brag abt.

after that, everyone seemed pretty high n all of us went back to the choir rm to blow air-con. it was den that uncle mark had a brillant idea to kill time. the solution was ... tai dee, lol. everyone started getting even ... well higher ... n we spent almost 2hrs on it, lol. we even taught the 2 newbies, melissa n nicole, a new module called ITD (aptly meaning Introduction to Tai Dee la), n immediately after spending abt 1hr watching the lecturers' (aka me n the guys) demonstrations, it was time for them to engage in 1 vs 1 battle. in the very close best-of-3-rounds fight for the title of TD Novice of sp choir, it was melissa edging out nicole to be crowned the winner. after more demonstrations from the lecturers, it was time to go off n we all went our separate ways at dover soon after. n now im back here blogging to tell u my day.

gtg sleep le. i gonna ko soon. miss u so much dear =)

sianzation again...

having sectionals in the choir room now with the guys. the gals r in the dance studio having their sectionals too. later den update again.

it's heartening to see the members working their butts off to help the choir. i thank them for not making today crap for me.

when udon and alvin meet each other...

baby-chan...

guess u'll be surprised after reading the above title what i'll write abt today. well, actually i had jap food @ clementi with some choir peeps after choir last night. but 1st, choir was a bummer today. i was trying to take the lead in the exco meeting with matt, daryl n u not being physically around with us n it was a struggle right from the start. we listed out the various shopping malls n hotels n painstakingly looked for their main n fax numbers in the search to secure xmas carolling engagements for the choir in december. i got deebika to come down n help me with the accounts n she was of great help to me. we started choir without matt, mandric n goh (the new conductor) n it was horriffic, with the dismal attendance n lack of commitment from the yr 1s. sectionals were ok, though the basses were slacking. overall, all i can say abt the situation in choir now is this: the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak. im trying desperately to salvage the situation, but i dunno for how much longer.

as i had mentioned earlier, after choir some of us went to clementi for jap food @ sumo-house, u know the place where 1 whole bunch of us went to for dinner once? with u being in japan in mind, i suggested jap food when we stepped foot into the grounds of clementi and hungry me accompanied ernest, joy, mark n edgar to sumo-house. once there, we quickly placed our orders n soon enough, the food came n everyone tucked in. i had udon with a sushi set which cost only $5.90. oishi n cheap ne! dinner was presumably ... awkward, but with a tinge of nostalgia for me. i rmb the times when we would eat jap food @ airport t2's food court n we'll lap up the v nice udon with glee. i felt so wretched eating last night's udon. just had an indescribable feeling abt it. i suddenly have an urge to take u back to the airport to visit the jap food stall with me. would u let me?

as for today, i was supposed to go out with the guys to sentosa to celebrate theo' s bday but unfortunately, i couldn't make it last min cuz dad decided to take mum n i out for breakfast this morning n i cnt say no. haiz. miscommunication la. sorry guys i couldn't make it today. i din tell my dad i going sentosa today n i dunno my dad going out for breakfast, so it turned out to be a v boring day for me after breakfast today.

tmr's choir again at noon. really dun feel lyk going but dun have any choice. life's starting to get mundane without u to light up my life. im counting down to next fri, when u'll return safely in my arms once again...

i love u =)

*happy belated 18th bday theo* - tmr's results day too *die die*

updates

heyo ppl.. back from my long hiatus from the blogosphere.. have so much to talk abt for this entry but dunno where to start from.. let's see now..

talking abt the exams seems weird since it took place like eons ago, but im gonna do it anyway. everything was ok except for my last paper - MMR. it was my weakest module & i studied like crazy for it, going without sleep & proper meals for 2 days. it din help that for the ca2 report i ... nvm. let's just say i've screwed up the biggest module of the sem n i thoroughly deserved it after my lousy performance. *crossing my fingers for the results in 3 more days*

taking the exams was one thing, having to face my classmates during the exams was another thing altogether. after my "disappearing act", it was a lill awkward having to see them again n i admit i was preparing to endure a tongue-lashing from them after my antics from the last few weeks of the sem but surprisingly, i was left alone to face the dreaded papers, which were bad enough. maybe this is just as well. to get back to the state i was with most of them before this sem started would be close to zlich - like finding snow in sunny tropical singapore - after the way i burned my bridges with them thruout the course of this sem. i've to admit my behaviour was v abnormal at that time & i said some things which i shouldn't too & i apologise for that, although i think it's too late for that. the damage has been done & i know it'll take forever to patch things up but i'll try my best to prove myself during the course of the new sem that im really sorry for everything that happened last sem.

hmm what's next? ok choir. dang this is almost like a taboo subject to me now. so many intangibles lingering within the choir, even within the exco. i can now feel the entire weight of my committee post resting squarely on my shoulders but i'll not give up without trying. i'll get things right in the end, rest assured exco peeps. we'll get thru this tough period together & everything starts from now.

"A journey of a thousand steps begins from a single step." - How true of this.

choir's been really really taxing on me, esp now that the 1-month sem break is here. there's choir 3 times a week, with the exco putting in more hours to map out everything we gotta do for the coming months. frankly speaking, i feel the exco can be more united den it appears now. all we need is compromise n accommodation. if we practise more give n take with one another, den everything we do will be much more efficient. i'll try to put my words into actions starting from now. esp since jo n daryl r not in the country now n matt's absence this week because he has to take care of his piano exams, all the more the remaining few of us gotta come together n get things done. i thereby implore all spc members to pls show ur support for the exco n have faith in us by coming down for practices more often. this is all we r asking of u. please.

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speaking of her, i really really miss her now. ytd at the airport was emotionally hard for both of us as this is our 1st real test of being apart for some time. in case anyone still dunno abt it, she left for a 2-week japan exchange trip last night. having the privilege to be in the same class gives us everyday time together but that's a disadvantage in itself as we r subjected to the scrutiny of classmates, coursemates n lecturers at all times. sometimes it's stifling, but i always tell myself to be true to myself n just be myself. same to her too. we spent some quality time during the short 2 weeks we had together, highlight being the zoo last sunday. seeing her so happy while we were in the midst of so many animals n scenic views makes me go aww at times cuz i'll do anything to put a smile on her face. i just hope she enjoys herself there n returns one happy gal in preparation for the new sem cuz she deserves to be happy.

till then, that's all folks. =)

thanks dear for ur nice email from japan, and happy belated 13th month to us!